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Courage over fear

What a crazy past three weeks it has been - rollarcoaster of emotions for me and I can't believe I survived it T.T From having my dad admitted to hospital in fear of an injury that was discovered to receiving a job opportunity and having to make a career decision in such a short span of time (while i'm on leave) to taking that brave step to inform my boss and ro on my intent to go for the interview to driving without JJ for the first time(s). A whirlpool of emotions, it feels overwhelming to be honest.  And I guess a lot of the emotions were more on the negative side - feeling fearful, anxious of the unknown, terrified maybe. And on the other hand, sense of relief and happiness when my dad was finally discharged because the doctors deem that it wasn't life-threathening and that he just had to attend further body check ups thereafter to receiving the full support and care from my boss and ro. I literally couldn't control my tears falling the moment my boss shared the pie...
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Winter is on my head, but eternal spring is in my heart

Holy grail, can't believe its been more than a year and here I am...decided that it's finally the night that I will pretty much like to update my blog. Yes what a year it has been, wouldn't have expected that my life will be like this a year back. Despite saying this, me is contented. Sitting right here alone in an A/C room hearing to 2NE1 music after a good bath and dinner, spending some me-time (while e hubby go for an impromtu night to JB with his bros). Heh tgif! Loving such Friday night <3  Been learning to appreciate these rare moments of me-time, to make use of it in a way that will make me feel good after. Recently, I thought to myself that 'hey its time to start brushing up the self-growth part of me as well as feeding my own mind and soul' cuz lately that was the part of me that I felt neglected - I guess I do sometimes pin a lot of expectations on myself when it comes to my growth at my work - what do i learn from it (aka professional growth) that I so...

Hello July

Wow its been half a year, honestly was little surprised that my last post was in Jan. Heh so i guess im back here to update how my life has been so far. Today -  8 Jul was a really happy day because our dear jiaen (aka my jenny) is married!! Hehe was so happi to see her in her white wedding gowns and beaming with a smile all the way. its like everyone just grew up so quickly and now me is seeing my friends get married one by one over the years :') I still recalled the days whereby jiaen wasn't having the best time with love back in our student days and fast forward today, she is happily married to the man of her life! Always makes my heart at ease seeing my close friends being so happy in their life. And funny how I always get so emotional at wedding speeches, I honestly suck at that. Hahaha even buddy could predict that i'll need some tissue cuz i'll probably be tearing away, which i did afterall heh. Thought this day the four of us could reunite - i guess we will wait...

Thank you 2022 and hello 2023

Yes its officially 2 Jan 2023 right now and just WOW, I'm really amazed at how 2022 just went by like that. Much has definitely happened since my last blog post, mainly happy things and am just feeling this sense of peacefulness within me as I'm writing my post. Feeling so surreal how the year ended so quickly, especially the last month (december). Still pretty much reminiscing all the wonderful things that I've experienced so far in 2022.  GRATEFUL AND THANKFUL. BLESSED :) Indeed I guess blessed is one of the words I will use to say because indeed both of the people I've met and the opportunities I've had.  Firstly speaking of my full time career, it's been amazing to be in this trio team of mine. Wonderful human beings who are genuinely nice and care for you. And my boss who's always looking out for us. I love the team spirit and am so excited to see what we can achieve !! Of course along the way, there were some ups and downs and I also learnt to go with ...

let this year be the year about courage and love

1.28am - hehe finally decided that I really wanted to spend some time to myself and perhaps you know, update my blog? i guess i have indeed been away for awhile and it does feel good to be back - to check in with myself and internalize all that's happening so far the past couple of months/looked back at the past year.  I think if i were to sum up the feelings that i've been feeling so far until today - its the feeling of being liberated, the little happiness in me and a whole heart of gratefulness for all thats happened :')  So much has happened in the past year and I am simply thankful that I am here where i am today. Wouldn't have expected myself to be here doing my current role - and grateful for the team i'm in right now, appreciate the colleagues i have with me right now and i honestly can't wait to see how much to grow in this new organization. From being a temp to a full-time worker, starting to embrace the role I'm in and constantly trying to push my...

Hello October!

A year and six months since the first CB started and look at where we are right now...still feeling pretty surreal that we're still in the midst of battling this pandemic or per say endemic to be?  I guess many of us wouldn't have imagined us to be battling this Covid-19 till today, and I'm just thankful that my loved ones are all safe and healthy <3  It's def been a difficult year for many (mostly in bad way i will say, minus the good part that we do get a decent amount of time to spend at home with your family as most people do wfh since last Apr 2020). But then again, I guess you can say I miss the liveliness of the neighbourhood, I miss the carefree times when we can indeed hang out as a group without worries (now I don't think I can forsee being maskless anytime soon even in the next year but I only wish for the easing of group gatherings because I sincerely miss family/relatives time and opportunities to hang out with your friends!) Covid-19 made me treasur...
Sitting at my desk on Christmas Eve and decided that it's a good time to blog, missed that feeling of alone time to write down my thoughts. Honestly, so much has been going through my mind and I guess this is probably the best avenue for me to pour out my feelings and thoughts.  24 Dec 2020 - Feeling one of the lowest in my spirits and state of mind. I feel awful on the inside, honestly. I'm not too sure if it's really about because of work or perhaps for me afraid to be my true self in front of others. Felt like I was drowning in work and while still trying to stay afloat, caring so much about how others thought of me and how else I can contribute and be of value. Feeling like I gave my ugly self to the ones who loved me the most. I really hate the "me" right now. Where did that once cheerful, bubbly and positive Adeline went to? Constant thoughts of giving up in my mind, and for a person who dislike to give up halfway, I really am starting to wonder why all thes...